In the cacophony surrounding WeinerGate, there's the distinct cry of outraged women advising Huma to leave her cock-pic-sending husband and never look back. "Not me, no way, I'd be gone." "I'd leave him so fast..." "She's crazy if she stays." "How could she ever trust him again?"
Until you've actually been in Huma's shoes, don't try to tell me what *you* would do. Believe me, you haven't got a clue in hell what you would actually do if you had the misfortune to find yourself in her situation. I do. I wore similar shoes for years. I know what that moment is like when you learn the man you've entrusted with your life, your heart, your well-being, your future, the man you love like no other; when you discover that man has betrayed you with another woman. Trust me. Unless you've been there, you have no idea what you would do. Hell, had someone told me 12 years ago that I would stay, I would have slapped them for even suggesting such a thing. Me? Hell no. Yet there I was.
I spent a quarter of my life with a man who was unfaithful.
I heard you gasp when you just read that. Truth be told, I gasped when I re-read it too. It's a harsh truth that never gets easy or comfortable to face. But it's my truth. Fact of the matter is, I chose to stay. Every day I chose to stay. I've ended friendships over this truth and had friendships ended over it. I get it. I understand the frustration. Watching a friend deal with the pain and heartbreak I choose to deal with must be frustrating at best. My friends wanted better for me. They wanted me to be happy. So did I. But until you can somehow spend a little time in my head, and feel my heart, you don't get to tell me what I should or shouldn't do, and you don't get to make me feel bad because of the choices I made.
We are imperfect beings. Some of us are more damaged than others. Some of us have issues the outside world can't even begin to fathom. If you're lucky, you find someone who loves you enough to try to understand your issues, to help you thru the ones that can be overcome, and help you carry the burden of the ones that can't. It's a connection beyond love.....a commitment beyond a ceremony or a license.
I hope Huma and Anthony find a way to repair the damage that's been done. It wont be easy and it wont be quick, but if it's what they want....nay, if it's what SHE wants, who are we to judge?
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